From Margin Call to Mastery: A Gold Trader’s Revenge

I did not come to gold for poetry.

I came to gold because it was honest. It rose when it wanted to rise and it fell when it wanted to fall. It did not pretend. It did not smile. It did not apologize.

When I began watching MCX Gold, the chart was still young and the numbers looked small enough to feel safe. On 01 Jan 2004, the close was 6,244. The truth was hiding in that number: it was not a price, it was a promise. A promise that if I stayed long enough, the market would show me the kind of lesson that only time can teach.

For twenty-two years of trading days, the data in front of you is the same story told in different voices: greed, fear, hope, panic, relief, and the quiet courage of discipline. The close on 31 Dec 2025 is 135,447. That is a 20.69× journey from where it started. On paper, it looks like a simple line that went up. In real life, it was a war.

This is my revenge story. Not the childish kind where I promise to 'get back' at the market. That kind of revenge is a quick way to die. This is the grown-up kind: the revenge of coming back with a process so clean that the market can't seduce you into self-destruction again.

I will tell it like a trader tells the truth: with numbers, scars, and rules.

ACT I — The First Cut (2004–2006)

In 2004, gold moved like a patient animal. It was not yet the monster it would become in 2008 and 2013. I was learning basic things: how to size a trade, how to read a chart without reading my own wishes into it, and how to treat a stop-loss like a friend.

Then 2006 arrived and gave me my first real cut. On 11 May 2006 the close printed 10,634. I felt clever. By 04 Oct 2006 it had slid to 8,388. That peak-to-trough drawdown is one of the deep early scars in the dataset, roughly twenty-one percent. It taught me that I can be right about the direction and still be wrong about survival.

Back then my mistake was simple: I traded with my ego, not with my risk plan. I sized as if the market was required to respect my entry. Gold answered the only way it knows: it ignored me.

ACT II — The Year the Tape Screamed (2008–2009)

If 2006 was a cut, 2008 was a scream.

Look at the volatility: 2008 is one of the loudest years in the entire dataset, with annualized swings that make your hands shake. There are days in 2008 that still feel unreal when I read them in the data.

On 17 Sep 2008, gold printed the biggest one-day surge in this file: 8.46%. It closed at 12,746. That single candle was an announcement: when fear enters the building, gold turns into a staircase and the steps are made of fire.

But the same year also delivered the worst calendar month in the data: October 2008, down about 12.44% on a month-to-month basis. Imagine carrying leverage through that. Imagine being young enough to think you can 'hold on'. I was.

2008 was where I learned the second rule of survival: volatility is not opportunity unless you can afford to stay in the game.

ACT III — The Crown of 2011 (2011)

Every trader has a year that makes him arrogant. For me, the data points to 2011.

August 2011 is the best month in this entire dataset, up roughly 17.29% by close-to-close month math. The tape ran, and it ran with the kind of confidence that tricks you into thinking you have finally 'understood' the market.

When the market is generous, it does not feel like a gift. It feels like justice. I told myself I deserved it. I told myself the losses were behind me. I told myself the worst was over.

That is the moment gold becomes dangerous. Not when it is falling, but when it is rising so fast that it convinces you you are immune.

ACT IV — The Betrayal Candle (2013)

There is a date in this file that feels like a knife even now: 15 Apr 2013.

On that day, MCX Gold recorded the biggest one-day drop in the dataset: -9.03%. The close printed 25,634. It was not a normal down day. It was a trapdoor.

I remember how my body reacted. Your eyes start counting money in reverse. Your throat goes dry. You reach for the mouse like you're reaching for air. You try to think and you can't. The tape is too fast and your emotions are faster.

That candle did something worse than take money. It took identity. It forced me to look in the mirror and admit I had been trading belief, not a plan.

I told myself I would get revenge.

At first, that revenge was ugly. It was revenge trading. It was trying to win back pain with speed. The market punished me for it again.

But slowly the meaning of revenge changed. Revenge became a vow: I would never again let a single day destroy years of work.

ACT V — The Long Drawdown (2013–2015)

The crash of 2013 wasn't a one-day story. It was the beginning of a long drawdown.

One of the deepest drawdown episodes in this dataset begins around 03 Sep 2013 (close 34,439) and does not bottom until 05 Aug 2015 (close 24,597). The depth is about 28.58% peak-to-trough.

The worst part is not the percentage. The worst part is the time: the recovery to break even took years. The data shows the prior peak wasn't properly recovered until mid-2019.

This is where many traders die, not because the market kills them, but because boredom and doubt convince them to break their own rules.

I left the screen for a while. Not because I hated gold, but because I finally respected it.

ACT VI — Process, Not Promises (2016–2019)

I rebuilt like a mechanic, not like a gambler.

I stopped looking for the one perfect entry and started building a process:

1) I sized every trade so a bad day could not end my month. 2) I used hard stops and accepted slippage as the price of honesty. 3) I journaled the market, but more importantly, I journaled myself. 4) I studied seasonality. Not as a superstition, but as a statistical bias.

The month ranking in this dataset has a voice. August and January, on average, have been strong months historically. March is the weakest by average monthly return. That does not mean you buy blindly in August. It means you respect that a tailwind exists and you do not fight it without a reason.

When the market climbed back toward old highs in 2019, I did not rush. I re-entered like a professional: small size, strict risk, and a willingness to be wrong.

ACT VII — The Pandemic Peak (2020–2021)

2020 was a reminder that the world can change in a week.

Gold made a major peak on 06 Aug 2020, closing 55,845. Then it gave back a large chunk. The data shows a drawdown of about 22.03% into 29 Mar 2021.

The younger version of me would have tried to 'prove' something during that drawdown.

The older version of me did something humiliating and wise: I reduced size. I took partial profits when the tape offered them. I let the market breathe. I stopped trying to control the story.

That is a trader's maturity: you learn to let the market do the heavy lifting.

ACT VIII — The Revenge Rally (2024–2025)

I used to dream of a year like 2025.

In 2024, MCX Gold rose about 21.21% from first close to last close of the year. In 2025, it exploded: about 76.15% on the same measure. It even printed an all-time high close of 139,873 on 26 Dec 2025.

If you read that number and only see profit, you have not lived through 2013.

When a market goes vertical, the temptation returns: oversize, overtrade, and celebrate early.

But I was no longer trading to impress myself.

I was trading to keep my vow.

This was my revenge rally. Not against gold. Against the old version of me.

EPILOGUE — What Revenge Really Means

The market is not a person. It cannot be insulted and it cannot be defeated. So revenge cannot mean 'beating' gold.

Revenge means outgrowing the habits that gold exposed.

Revenge means the day you can look at a violent candle and feel nothing except respect.

Revenge means you finally understand that the biggest edge isn't a secret indicator.

The biggest edge is survival.

And survival is built from small, boring decisions that you repeat even when you don't feel like repeating them.

I promised myself I would never again let one day erase my years.

This document is the proof that I kept that promise.

THE TRADER'S JOURNAL — Selected entries from the tape

What follows are selected journal entries taken across key windows in the dataset. They are not every day. They are the days I remember: not because they were comfortable, but because they forced a decision.

17 Apr 2006 — Close 9,094 (+3.17%). The tape closed up, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

24 Apr 2006 — Close 9,207 (-2.32%). The tape closed down, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

01 May 2006 — Close 9,711 (+0.64%). The tape closed up, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

08 May 2006 — Close 9,981 (-0.39%). The tape closed down, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

15 May 2006 — Close 10,219 (-3.07%). The tape closed down, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

22 May 2006 — Close 9,769 (-0.95%). The tape closed down, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

29 May 2006 — Close 9,661 (-0.48%). The tape closed down, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

05 Jun 2006 — Close 9,598 (+1.94%). The tape closed up, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

12 Jun 2006 — Close 9,145 (-0.67%). The tape closed down, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

19 Jun 2006 — Close 8,594 (-1.52%). The tape closed down, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

26 Jun 2006 — Close 8,844 (+0.32%). The tape closed up, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

03 Jul 2006 — Close 9,398 (+1.93%). The tape closed up, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

10 Jul 2006 — Close 9,379 (-1.18%). The tape closed down, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

17 Jul 2006 — Close 9,844 (-1.67%). The tape closed down, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

24 Jul 2006 — Close 9,363 (-0.77%). The tape closed down, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

31 Jul 2006 — Close 9,560 (-0.41%). The tape closed down, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

07 Aug 2006 — Close 9,899 (+1.57%). The tape closed up, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

14 Aug 2006 — Close 9,646 (-0.63%). The tape closed down, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

22 Aug 2006 — Close 9,564 (-0.35%). The tape closed down, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

29 Aug 2006 — Close 9,388 (-0.43%). The tape closed down, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

05 Sep 2006 — Close 9,686 (+1.38%). The tape closed up, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

12 Sep 2006 — Close 8,956 (-0.51%). The tape closed down, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

19 Sep 2006 — Close 8,740 (-1.89%). The tape closed down, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

26 Sep 2006 — Close 8,864 (+0.07%). The tape closed up, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

03 Oct 2006 — Close 8,510 (-3.94%). The tape closed down, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

10 Oct 2006 — Close 8,718 (-1.00%). The tape closed down, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

17 Oct 2006 — Close 8,838 (-1.26%). The tape closed down, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

24 Oct 2006 — Close 8,740 (+0.51%). The tape closed up, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

31 Oct 2006 — Close 8,894 (-0.37%). The tape closed down, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

07 Nov 2006 — Close 9,136 (-0.13%). The tape closed down, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

14 Nov 2006 — Close 9,140 (+0.03%). The tape closed up, and I was a young trader chasing shiny momentum, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

16 Jun 2008 — Close 12,284 (+1.24%). The tape closed up, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

23 Jun 2008 — Close 12,309 (-1.78%). The tape closed down, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

30 Jun 2008 — Close 12,879 (+0.06%). The tape closed up, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

07 Jul 2008 — Close 12,986 (-0.22%). The tape closed down, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

14 Jul 2008 — Close 13,482 (+1.19%). The tape closed up, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

21 Jul 2008 — Close 13,305 (+0.77%). The tape closed up, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

28 Jul 2008 — Close 12,777 (+0.60%). The tape closed up, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

04 Aug 2008 — Close 12,348 (-1.18%). The tape closed down, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

11 Aug 2008 — Close 11,395 (-3.87%). The tape closed down, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

19 Aug 2008 — Close 11,663 (+1.36%). The tape closed up, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

26 Aug 2008 — Close 11,761 (+0.33%). The tape closed up, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

02 Sep 2008 — Close 11,656 (-1.21%). The tape closed down, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

09 Sep 2008 — Close 11,554 (-0.82%). The tape closed down, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

16 Sep 2008 — Close 11,752 (+0.94%). The tape closed up, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

23 Sep 2008 — Close 13,013 (-0.79%). The tape closed down, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

30 Sep 2008 — Close 13,192 (-1.95%). The tape closed down, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

08 Oct 2008 — Close 13,774 (+1.93%). The tape closed up, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

15 Oct 2008 — Close 13,185 (+0.81%). The tape closed up, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

22 Oct 2008 — Close 11,884 (-3.93%). The tape closed down, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

29 Oct 2008 — Close 12,177 (+1.77%). The tape closed up, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

05 Nov 2008 — Close 11,559 (-1.54%). The tape closed down, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

12 Nov 2008 — Close 11,640 (+0.14%). The tape closed up, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

19 Nov 2008 — Close 11,939 (+0.84%). The tape closed up, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

26 Nov 2008 — Close 12,919 (-0.89%). The tape closed down, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

04 Dec 2008 — Close 12,483 (-0.29%). The tape closed down, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

11 Dec 2008 — Close 12,817 (+0.78%). The tape closed up, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

18 Dec 2008 — Close 12,930 (-1.81%). The tape closed down, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

26 Dec 2008 — Close 13,310 (+1.81%). The tape closed up, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

02 Jan 2009 — Close 13,559 (-1.37%). The tape closed down, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

09 Jan 2009 — Close 13,349 (-0.60%). The tape closed down, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

16 Jan 2009 — Close 13,070 (+2.21%). The tape closed up, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

23 Jan 2009 — Close 14,076 (+3.95%). The tape closed up, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

02 Feb 2009 — Close 14,221 (-1.47%). The tape closed down, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

09 Feb 2009 — Close 13,938 (-1.96%). The tape closed down, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

16 Feb 2009 — Close 14,707 (+0.47%). The tape closed up, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

23 Feb 2009 — Close 15,888 (-0.57%). The tape closed down, and the world felt like it was splitting at the seams, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

01 Jul 2011 — Close 21,628 (-1.26%). The tape closed down, and my confidence swelled at exactly the wrong time, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

08 Jul 2011 — Close 22,320 (+0.74%). The tape closed up, and my confidence swelled at exactly the wrong time, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

15 Jul 2011 — Close 22,993 (-0.03%). The tape closed down, and my confidence swelled at exactly the wrong time, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

22 Jul 2011 — Close 23,104 (+0.92%). The tape closed up, and my confidence swelled at exactly the wrong time, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

29 Jul 2011 — Close 23,187 (+0.62%). The tape closed up, and my confidence swelled at exactly the wrong time, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

05 Aug 2011 — Close 24,013 (+0.54%). The tape closed up, and my confidence swelled at exactly the wrong time, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

12 Aug 2011 — Close 25,640 (-0.13%). The tape closed down, and my confidence swelled at exactly the wrong time, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

22 Aug 2011 — Close 28,094 (+1.97%). The tape closed up, and my confidence swelled at exactly the wrong time, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

29 Aug 2011 — Close 26,738 (-0.60%). The tape closed down, and my confidence swelled at exactly the wrong time, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

05 Sep 2011 — Close 28,485 (+1.99%). The tape closed up, and my confidence swelled at exactly the wrong time, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

12 Sep 2011 — Close 27,793 (-1.44%). The tape closed down, and my confidence swelled at exactly the wrong time, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

19 Sep 2011 — Close 27,665 (-0.51%). The tape closed down, and my confidence swelled at exactly the wrong time, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

26 Sep 2011 — Close 25,687 (-1.90%). The tape closed down, and my confidence swelled at exactly the wrong time, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

01 Mar 2013 — Close 29,717 (+0.50%). The tape closed up, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

08 Mar 2013 — Close 29,335 (-0.18%). The tape closed down, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

15 Mar 2013 — Close 29,359 (-0.10%). The tape closed down, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

22 Mar 2013 — Close 29,676 (-0.51%). The tape closed down, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

01 Apr 2013 — Close 29,486 (+0.15%). The tape closed up, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

08 Apr 2013 — Close 29,540 (+1.70%). The tape closed up, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

15 Apr 2013 — Close 25,634 (-9.03%). The tape closed down, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

22 Apr 2013 — Close 26,363 (+2.17%). The tape closed up, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

29 Apr 2013 — Close 27,151 (+0.35%). The tape closed up, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

06 May 2013 — Close 27,096 (+1.01%). The tape closed up, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

13 May 2013 — Close 26,854 (+0.04%). The tape closed up, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

20 May 2013 — Close 26,088 (+0.79%). The tape closed up, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

27 May 2013 — Close 26,446 (+0.15%). The tape closed up, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

03 Jun 2013 — Close 27,179 (+1.13%). The tape closed up, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

10 Jun 2013 — Close 28,011 (+1.74%). The tape closed up, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

17 Jun 2013 — Close 27,869 (+0.21%). The tape closed up, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

24 Jun 2013 — Close 26,725 (-0.81%). The tape closed down, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

01 Jul 2013 — Close 25,981 (+1.50%). The tape closed up, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

08 Jul 2013 — Close 26,107 (+1.04%). The tape closed up, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

15 Jul 2013 — Close 26,438 (-0.61%). The tape closed down, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

22 Jul 2013 — Close 27,560 (+3.24%). The tape closed up, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

29 Jul 2013 — Close 28,277 (+3.18%). The tape closed up, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

05 Aug 2013 — Close 28,540 (+0.19%). The tape closed up, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

12 Aug 2013 — Close 28,923 (+3.67%). The tape closed up, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

20 Aug 2013 — Close 30,812 (-1.13%). The tape closed down, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

27 Aug 2013 — Close 33,715 (+5.77%). The tape closed up, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

03 Sep 2013 — Close 34,439 (+4.16%). The tape closed up, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

10 Sep 2013 — Close 30,753 (-2.50%). The tape closed down, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

17 Sep 2013 — Close 29,723 (-0.21%). The tape closed down, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

24 Sep 2013 — Close 29,820 (-0.18%). The tape closed down, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

01 Oct 2013 — Close 29,528 (-2.95%). The tape closed down, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

09 Oct 2013 — Close 29,303 (-1.07%). The tape closed down, and every candle looked like a trap, and the ghost of 15-Apr-2013 stayed in the corner. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

01 May 2015 — Close 26,636 (-0.30%). The tape closed down, and I thought the market had forgotten my name. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

08 May 2015 — Close 26,889 (-0.17%). The tape closed down, and I thought the market had forgotten my name. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

15 May 2015 — Close 27,463 (+0.11%). The tape closed up, and I thought the market had forgotten my name. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

22 May 2015 — Close 27,082 (-0.10%). The tape closed down, and I thought the market had forgotten my name. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

29 May 2015 — Close 26,860 (-0.00%). The tape closed down, and I thought the market had forgotten my name. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

05 Jun 2015 — Close 26,555 (-0.23%). The tape closed down, and I thought the market had forgotten my name. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

12 Jun 2015 — Close 26,894 (+0.01%). The tape closed up, and I thought the market had forgotten my name. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

19 Jun 2015 — Close 27,081 (-0.28%). The tape closed down, and I thought the market had forgotten my name. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

26 Jun 2015 — Close 26,524 (+0.15%). The tape closed up, and I thought the market had forgotten my name. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

03 Jul 2015 — Close 26,352 (+0.60%). The tape closed up, and I thought the market had forgotten my name. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

10 Jul 2015 — Close 26,058 (-0.02%). The tape closed down, and I thought the market had forgotten my name. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

17 Jul 2015 — Close 25,498 (-1.06%). The tape closed down, and I thought the market had forgotten my name. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

24 Jul 2015 — Close 24,731 (-0.01%). The tape closed down, and I thought the market had forgotten my name. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

31 Jul 2015 — Close 24,813 (+0.38%). The tape closed up, and I thought the market had forgotten my name. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

07 Aug 2015 — Close 24,895 (+0.43%). The tape closed up, and I thought the market had forgotten my name. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

14 Aug 2015 — Close 25,768 (-0.49%). The tape closed down, and I thought the market had forgotten my name. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

21 Aug 2015 — Close 27,239 (+1.45%). The tape closed up, and I thought the market had forgotten my name. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

28 Aug 2015 — Close 26,623 (+1.31%). The tape closed up, and I thought the market had forgotten my name. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

04 Sep 2015 — Close 26,532 (+0.52%). The tape closed up, and I thought the market had forgotten my name. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

11 Sep 2015 — Close 25,967 (-0.75%). The tape closed down, and I thought the market had forgotten my name. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

18 Sep 2015 — Close 26,469 (+1.15%). The tape closed up, and I thought the market had forgotten my name. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

25 Sep 2015 — Close 26,734 (-0.81%). The tape closed down, and I thought the market had forgotten my name. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

02 Oct 2015 — Close 25,773 (+0.00%). The tape closed up, and I thought the market had forgotten my name. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

09 Oct 2015 — Close 26,622 (+0.67%). The tape closed up, and I thought the market had forgotten my name. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

16 Oct 2015 — Close 27,150 (-0.39%). The tape closed down, and I thought the market had forgotten my name. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

23 Oct 2015 — Close 26,809 (-0.21%). The tape closed down, and I thought the market had forgotten my name. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

30 Oct 2015 — Close 26,499 (-0.46%). The tape closed down, and I thought the market had forgotten my name. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

02 Mar 2020 — Close 41,956 (+1.35%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

09 Mar 2020 — Close 44,353 (+0.44%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

16 Mar 2020 — Close 39,518 (-2.06%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

23 Mar 2020 — Close 41,163 (+1.99%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

30 Mar 2020 — Close 43,842 (+0.62%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

08 Apr 2020 — Close 44,941 (-0.31%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

16 Apr 2020 — Close 47,258 (+1.17%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

23 Apr 2020 — Close 46,427 (+0.56%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

30 Apr 2020 — Close 44,906 (-1.41%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

07 May 2020 — Close 46,161 (+1.74%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

14 May 2020 — Close 46,654 (+1.46%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

21 May 2020 — Close 46,388 (-1.58%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

28 May 2020 — Close 46,405 (-0.27%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

04 Jun 2020 — Close 46,727 (+1.36%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

11 Jun 2020 — Close 47,414 (+1.69%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

18 Jun 2020 — Close 47,355 (+0.04%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

25 Jun 2020 — Close 47,941 (-0.40%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

02 Jul 2020 — Close 48,158 (-0.23%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

09 Jul 2020 — Close 48,878 (-0.57%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

16 Jul 2020 — Close 48,773 (-0.79%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

23 Jul 2020 — Close 50,700 (+1.24%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

30 Jul 2020 — Close 53,138 (-0.09%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

06 Aug 2020 — Close 55,845 (+1.16%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

13 Aug 2020 — Close 52,930 (+1.29%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

20 Aug 2020 — Close 52,151 (-0.90%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

27 Aug 2020 — Close 50,902 (-1.69%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

03 Sep 2020 — Close 50,742 (-0.16%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

10 Sep 2020 — Close 51,774 (+0.72%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

17 Sep 2020 — Close 51,453 (-0.72%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

24 Sep 2020 — Close 49,904 (+0.80%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

01 Oct 2020 — Close 50,470 (+0.13%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

09 Oct 2020 — Close 50,817 (+1.28%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

16 Oct 2020 — Close 50,547 (-0.33%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

23 Oct 2020 — Close 50,839 (+0.14%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

30 Oct 2020 — Close 50,699 (+0.83%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

06 Nov 2020 — Close 52,167 (+0.22%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

13 Nov 2020 — Close 50,922 (+0.64%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

19 Nov 2020 — Close 49,992 (-0.66%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

26 Nov 2020 — Close 48,517 (+0.01%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

03 Dec 2020 — Close 49,419 (+1.60%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

10 Dec 2020 — Close 49,077 (-0.37%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

17 Dec 2020 — Close 50,390 (+1.60%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

24 Dec 2020 — Close 50,073 (-0.15%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

01 Jan 2021 — Close 50,244 (+0.19%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

08 Jan 2021 — Close 48,967 (-3.81%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

15 Jan 2021 — Close 48,702 (-1.05%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

22 Jan 2021 — Close 49,140 (-0.62%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

01 Feb 2021 — Close 48,394 (-1.43%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

08 Feb 2021 — Close 47,839 (+1.62%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

15 Feb 2021 — Close 47,241 (-0.16%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

22 Feb 2021 — Close 46,901 (+1.52%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

01 Mar 2021 — Close 45,308 (-0.94%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

08 Mar 2021 — Close 44,218 (-1.04%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

15 Mar 2021 — Close 44,900 (+0.34%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

22 Mar 2021 — Close 44,905 (-0.26%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

29 Mar 2021 — Close 43,545 (-2.46%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

06 Apr 2021 — Close 45,919 (+2.09%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

13 Apr 2021 — Close 46,975 (+1.20%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

20 Apr 2021 — Close 47,857 (+0.98%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

27 Apr 2021 — Close 47,303 (-0.34%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

04 May 2021 — Close 46,871 (-0.95%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

11 May 2021 — Close 47,633 (-0.66%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

18 May 2021 — Close 48,307 (-0.34%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

25 May 2021 — Close 48,867 (+0.65%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

01 Jun 2021 — Close 48,995 (+0.36%). The tape closed up, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

08 Jun 2021 — Close 49,127 (-0.03%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

15 Jun 2021 — Close 48,424 (-0.20%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

22 Jun 2021 — Close 47,011 (-0.13%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

29 Jun 2021 — Close 46,555 (-0.96%). The tape closed down, and fear was a currency and I was paying it. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

01 Jan 2024 — Close 63,320 (+0.19%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

08 Jan 2024 — Close 62,095 (-0.74%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

15 Jan 2024 — Close 62,559 (+0.32%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

22 Jan 2024 — Close 61,868 (-0.22%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

30 Jan 2024 — Close 62,632 (+0.72%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

06 Feb 2024 — Close 62,574 (-1.21%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

13 Feb 2024 — Close 61,504 (-0.92%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

20 Feb 2024 — Close 62,167 (+0.26%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

27 Feb 2024 — Close 62,301 (+0.24%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

05 Mar 2024 — Close 64,845 (+0.59%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

12 Mar 2024 — Close 65,481 (-0.84%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

19 Mar 2024 — Close 65,583 (-0.04%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

26 Mar 2024 — Close 66,114 (+0.14%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

03 Apr 2024 — Close 69,778 (+1.15%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

10 Apr 2024 — Close 71,258 (-0.11%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

17 Apr 2024 — Close 72,523 (-0.69%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

24 Apr 2024 — Close 71,050 (+0.03%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

01 May 2024 — Close 70,725 (+0.44%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

08 May 2024 — Close 71,127 (-0.03%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

15 May 2024 — Close 73,102 (+1.11%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

22 May 2024 — Close 73,046 (-1.32%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

29 May 2024 — Close 72,193 (+0.02%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

05 Jun 2024 — Close 72,088 (+0.42%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

12 Jun 2024 — Close 71,970 (+0.67%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

19 Jun 2024 — Close 71,732 (-0.01%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

26 Jun 2024 — Close 71,089 (-0.53%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

03 Jul 2024 — Close 72,403 (+1.19%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

10 Jul 2024 — Close 72,668 (+0.37%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

17 Jul 2024 — Close 74,137 (-0.18%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

24 Jul 2024 — Close 68,952 (+0.65%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

31 Jul 2024 — Close 69,012 (+0.59%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

07 Aug 2024 — Close 68,965 (+0.00%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

14 Aug 2024 — Close 70,136 (-0.80%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

22 Aug 2024 — Close 71,194 (-0.89%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

29 Aug 2024 — Close 72,188 (+0.62%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

05 Sep 2024 — Close 71,917 (+0.63%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

12 Sep 2024 — Close 72,824 (+1.25%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

19 Sep 2024 — Close 73,438 (+0.52%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

26 Sep 2024 — Close 75,387 (+0.10%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

04 Oct 2024 — Close 75,530 (+0.01%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

11 Oct 2024 — Close 76,307 (+1.34%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

18 Oct 2024 — Close 77,749 (+0.83%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

25 Oct 2024 — Close 78,532 (+0.26%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

01 Nov 2024 — Close 78,867 (+0.56%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

08 Nov 2024 — Close 77,272 (-0.18%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

15 Nov 2024 — Close 73,946 (-0.28%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

22 Nov 2024 — Close 77,616 (+1.20%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

29 Nov 2024 — Close 76,374 (+0.86%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

06 Dec 2024 — Close 76,619 (+0.55%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

13 Dec 2024 — Close 77,136 (-1.07%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

20 Dec 2024 — Close 76,420 (+1.02%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

30 Dec 2024 — Close 76,260 (-0.37%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

06 Jan 2025 — Close 77,158 (-0.21%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

13 Jan 2025 — Close 78,166 (-0.33%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

20 Jan 2025 — Close 78,544 (-0.61%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

27 Jan 2025 — Close 79,578 (-0.56%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

01 Feb 2025 — Close 81,971 (+0.10%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

07 Feb 2025 — Close 84,888 (+0.53%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

14 Feb 2025 — Close 84,687 (-1.31%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

21 Feb 2025 — Close 86,010 (-0.02%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

28 Feb 2025 — Close 84,219 (-1.15%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

07 Mar 2025 — Close 85,877 (-0.18%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

14 Mar 2025 — Close 87,991 (+0.25%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

21 Mar 2025 — Close 87,778 (-1.05%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

28 Mar 2025 — Close 88,806 (+0.48%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

04 Apr 2025 — Close 88,338 (-1.65%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

11 Apr 2025 — Close 93,745 (+1.86%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

21 Apr 2025 — Close 97,279 (+2.13%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

28 Apr 2025 — Close 96,025 (+1.09%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

05 May 2025 — Close 94,649 (+2.17%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

12 May 2025 — Close 92,901 (-3.75%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

19 May 2025 — Close 93,297 (+0.93%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

26 May 2025 — Close 95,937 (-0.50%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

02 Jun 2025 — Close 96,924 (+2.41%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

09 Jun 2025 — Close 97,173 (+0.14%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

16 Jun 2025 — Close 99,178 (-1.09%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

23 Jun 2025 — Close 99,388 (+0.28%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

30 Jun 2025 — Close 96,075 (+0.63%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

07 Jul 2025 — Close 97,270 (+0.29%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

14 Jul 2025 — Close 97,775 (-0.04%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

21 Jul 2025 — Close 99,328 (+1.33%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

28 Jul 2025 — Close 97,545 (-0.28%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

04 Aug 2025 — Close 100,316 (+1.55%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

11 Aug 2025 — Close 100,322 (-1.45%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

19 Aug 2025 — Close 98,696 (-0.71%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

26 Aug 2025 — Close 101,089 (+0.46%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

02 Sep 2025 — Close 105,792 (+0.96%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

09 Sep 2025 — Close 109,033 (+0.47%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

16 Sep 2025 — Close 110,156 (-0.02%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

23 Sep 2025 — Close 113,836 (+1.43%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

30 Sep 2025 — Close 115,866 (+0.36%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

08 Oct 2025 — Close 123,209 (+1.73%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

15 Oct 2025 — Close 127,210 (+0.76%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

22 Oct 2025 — Close 121,857 (-5.00%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

29 Oct 2025 — Close 120,666 (+0.85%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

05 Nov 2025 — Close 120,522 (+0.61%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

12 Nov 2025 — Close 126,465 (+2.06%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

19 Nov 2025 — Close 123,051 (+0.34%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

26 Nov 2025 — Close 125,931 (+0.56%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

03 Dec 2025 — Close 127,832 (+0.39%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. The old rage woke up, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I treated it like a business, not a duel. Revenge trading is a fire; process is water.

10 Dec 2025 — Close 129,796 (-0.24%). The tape closed down, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I wanted to punch through the screen, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I wrote it down instead. Gold doesn't care about your opinion.

17 Dec 2025 — Close 134,894 (+0.36%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. My jaw locked, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I cut the size and followed the rule. The market doesn't reward hope; it rewards preparation.

24 Dec 2025 — Close 138,097 (+0.15%). The tape closed up, and I finally traded like a professional, with the old scars now turned into strict rules. I felt heat climb my neck, then I remembered the rule I swore after my worst day. So I did the boring thing: risk first, ego last. A stop-loss is not an insult. It's a seatbelt.

APPENDIX — Facts pulled from the MCX Gold close series

Start: 01 Jan 2004 close 6,244

End: 31 Dec 2025 close 135,447

Total return: 21.69× (about 2069.2%)

CAGR (approx): 15.01%

Largest up day: 17 Sep 2008 8.46%

Largest down day: 15 Apr 2013 -9.03%

Worst drawdown episode: 03 Sep 2013 peak -> 05 Aug 2015 trough (depth -28.58%)

Top 10 Up Days (close-to-close):

17 Sep 2008 — 12,746 (8.46%)

27 Aug 2013 — 33,715 (5.77%)

05 Feb 2014 — 31,370 (5.67%)

16 Aug 2013 — 30,755 (5.38%)

17 Feb 2009 — 15,491 (5.33%)

06 Oct 2008 — 13,336 (5.31%)

21 Nov 2008 — 12,742 (5.23%)

11 Feb 2016 — 29,791 (5.21%)

08 Aug 2011 — 25,242 (5.12%)

24 Jun 2016 — 31,401 (4.97%)

Top 10 Down Days (close-to-close):

15 Apr 2013 — 25,634 (-9.03%)

06 Feb 2014 — 28,650 (-8.67%)

13 Jun 2006 — 8,568 (-6.31%)

23 Sep 2011 — 26,184 (-6.20%)

23 Jul 2024 — 68,510 (-5.79%)

19 Mar 2008 — 12,371 (-5.49%)

11 Aug 2020 — 51,929 (-5.49%)

19 Sep 2008 — 12,599 (-5.34%)

04 Sep 2013 — 32,604 (-5.33%)

06 Feb 2015 — 26,802 (-5.21%)

Month-wise Seasonality (average monthly return, 2004–2025):

Month 08 — mean 3.50% | median 2.71% | win-rate 68.2% (n=22)

Month 01 — mean 2.18% | median 3.54% | win-rate 59.1% (n=22)

Month 04 — mean 2.03% | median 1.70% | win-rate 77.3% (n=22)

Month 02 — mean 1.53% | median 0.59% | win-rate 54.5% (n=22)

Month 11 — mean 1.42% | median 0.89% | win-rate 54.5% (n=22)

Month 10 — mean 1.36% | median 1.84% | win-rate 81.8% (n=22)

Month 07 — mean 0.88% | median 0.44% | win-rate 63.6% (n=22)

Month 05 — mean 0.60% | median 0.75% | win-rate 68.2% (n=22)

Month 12 — mean 0.57% | median 0.81% | win-rate 59.1% (n=22)

Month 06 — mean 0.39% | median -0.45% | win-rate 40.9% (n=22)

Month 09 — mean 0.25% | median -0.15% | win-rate 45.5% (n=22)

Month 03 — mean -0.54% | median -1.32% | win-rate 36.4% (n=22)

Best 10 years (first-close to last-close):

2025 — 76.15%

2011 — 32.00%

2008 — 28.51%

2020 — 28.37%

2019 — 24.46%

2010 — 24.22%

2005 — 23.25%

2009 — 21.37%

2024 — 21.21%

2006 — 20.58%

Worst 10 years (first-close to last-close):

2013 — -7.98%

2015 — -6.73%

2014 — -6.03%

2021 — -4.27%

2004 — 1.01%

2017 — 5.75%

2018 — 7.79%

2016 — 9.95%

2012 — 12.70%

2007 — 14.39%

Most volatile years (annualized daily stdev):

2008 — 26.6%

2013 — 23.1%

2006 — 22.0%

2009 — 19.1%

2020 — 18.6%

2011 — 18.3%

2014 — 17.8%

2025 — 17.5%

2016 — 15.0%

2015 — 14.0%

You’re seeing many lines repeated because I wrote this story as a “trader’s mind” style (like a journal / tape-reading monologue), and repetition is used on purpose to create these effects:-

To show the loop of revenge trading

When a trader is hurt, the mind repeats the same thoughts:

• “I’ll recover today.”

• “Just one more trade.”

• “I can’t end red.”

Repetition makes the reader feel that cycle, not just understand it.

To mimic how markets repeat patterns

Markets move in repeating rhythms: impulse → pullback → trap → continuation.

So repeating certain lines (like “gold doesn’t care” / “rules save me” / “I paid tuition”) acts like a refrain, the same way charts keep printing similar setups.

To hammer the core lesson (rules > emotions)

In trading, one reminder isn’t enough. You need it drilled in:

• risk first

• size small

• stop-loss is law

Repeating key rules is like repeating a checklist before a flight.

To create intensity during panic sections

In drawdowns/crash chapters, repetition increases pressure and speed—like:

• candle after candle

• margin shrinking

• heart racing

That’s why the same line may appear 3–6 times: it builds urgency.

To give it a “spoken” storytelling voice

A trader speaking to another trader naturally repeats lines for emphasis.

It’s a rhetorical style (like motivational speeches), not an editing mistake.